i am so very tired. stupid me, going on a bender friday night, getting no sleep then working a twelve hour shift last night... didn't get to sleep until four this morning. i managed to get around six hours of shut-eye but i'll be wrecked for the rest of the week. ugh. i'm an idiot.

on friday night i was at S and C's. they had a few people over for drinks and karaoke then we headed out to some local bars. it was a decent night. it's a possiblity that i may have consumed a few too many beers. it's also a possibilty that i slept with C. and after my last entry... i really really need to cut back on the alcoholic beverages otherwise i'm never going to make the right decisions. but when you're the only girl in a group of guys and you have no interest in sports there's only one thing that you can do to fit in... and that's drink. i've never denied being the poster child for peer group pressure. it's a title i hold dearly.

a friend of C's who i can't stand was hitting on me. i knew that he wasn't all that serious about it because he was doing it right in front of C's face. he just wanted to get a rise out of C. and because i knew this i just went with it, otherwise i probably would have slapped him. he was saying all this vulgar stuff to me and rubbing himself up against me... thinking back on it... it's all oh so creepy and wrong. anyway C starts telling him to cut it out. tells him that it's not cool nor funny. this guy persists and C just flips out, almost punches his friend, probably would have if i wasn't between them. it was cool. i have never seen C get jealous. i liked the feeling it gave me... it was kinda like... power.

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