hmm... today has been... interesting.

i got offered a job. i got asked out on a date. i was told that i was too healthy to get help.

so i got a job as a mystery shopper, working in a call centre and assessing the telstra operators when i call up and ask stupid questions. i'm not going to take it. why? well it's in the city and it's a definite 25 hours a week but i'm not gonna pay for public transport ($72 a week) for a part time job. i just wish that one of these jobs i'm applying for would be exactly what it says in the job description, this one said full time, now it's casual.

so i decided to bite the bullet and contact one of those agencies that help people with disabilities and illnesses find employment. ok so physically i'm pretty good, still a bit tired, can't type or write like i used to, get lots of headaches, but aside from those small things i'm alright. so why do i need help from one of these agencies? well i don't but they all say that they help people with certain barriers find work so i thought why not. so i call. she asks me what is wrong with me and i tell her. she then asks about my past work experience and my education level. then i get the whole i'm not sure if we can offer you anything. they mainly deal with people with obvious disabilities, like no arms, a bad back, people with these kinds of problems who have no education, people who have similar things to me who have no education. well i don't fall into any category. apparently if you get sick and can't work for a period of time and you have an education then you're on your own. little johnny howard (or the funniest abreviation of his name to date j-ho) says that there are jobs for people on disability, that we're all just bludging off the government, well i am actively seeking work and when i approach a government agency for help i'm not disabled enough. it's a totally fucked up state of affairs. fuck you j-ho.

on to a more pleasant topic. my date. well we haven't actually committed to anything yet but he has asked me out and i said yes. only one reservation. i met him online. well i do know of him, he's the lead singer in a melbourne band that i've seen a few times, i may have even spoken to him once or twice, but i never really knew him before i stumbled across him online one day. i've only met a few people from the internet. one of them, tim, is a close friend, the others... well one of them spent the entire time on his phone, another had told all his friends that i was his girlfriend and when i didn't share his feelings on 'us', proceeded to stalk me via the internet. and there have been a couple of others, nothing to write home about.

so now there's this guy. he combines my unhealthy obsession for musicians and my unnatural attraction to nerds. it's odd.

and thanks mel for picking up on the names. i hope they're all changed now.

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