i've just put in an enquiry about doing a diploma in community development. i'm not going to mention it to anyone, because i might change my mind and then people will think that i'm not trying to get my life on track. i've had people tell me that i'm using my brain tumour as a crutch, so i don't have to face life in the real world. um... i am living in the real world and there aren't many opportunities for people who spend half their time at doctors appointments and the other half trying to get out of bed in order to do something. why would i want to milk something like this for all it's worth. it's not a broken leg it's bloody cancer. >insert sarcastic tone>oh yeah, i love getting handouts because i have a possibly terminal disease, bring it on! cancer rocks! >end sarcasm> anyway, regardless of whether i do this diploma or not i'm determined to have my life back this year.

the only thing with the diploma is that i won't be able to move out of my parents house because the school is just fifteen minutes from here and it would be stupid renting somewhere, considering i won't be able to work full time hours and i won't have much money. so these are all things i have to take into consideration before i mention anything to anyone.

i could always go back to work at the chinese restaurant, but i'm not too keen on that. i guess it is good to know that i can always get my job back. although if i have to do hospitality work i'd like to work in a place that pays actual award wages.

i put up a profile on lavalife last night. it's amazing how many cute men are looking for love. or at least a date. i signed up just in the dating part because i'm not interested in a relationship, or meaningless sex. i mean i could have either one of those but no one seems to want to just hang out with me. i just thought i might meet some people who i can become friends with, seeing as my circle of friends is getting smaller by the day.

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