i don't know what to write about. sure there's plenty of stuff going on in my head but most of it's not important. mind you, when have i ever written about anything that was important?

J and D's engagement party is coming up in a couple of weeks. they have made it a semi-formal affair at some swanky bar. so i now have to find the perfect gift and perfect dress and i have no money. they don't expect a gift but j's practically my closest friend in the world so i want to give her something that goes above and beyond a standard engagement present. i have a feeling it could get pricey.

and then there's the matter of finding something to wear. i'm thinking i might just make my own dress... but while i think the clothes i make are wearable, i would like a dress that will be perfect... and when i sew, i tend to cut corners... half the time there's at least one safety pin holding something together. *shrugs* i get bored.

and then there's the real reason why i want to look sensational. i'm taking C as my date. i want him to see what he gave up. i want him to look at me and think "wow. not only is she smart, cool and kind, she's super-hot, i'm such a fool for thinking that i can do better". haha. yeah... i'm hopeless.

but J and D give hope to us all.

this time last year J and I were getting ready to leave for france and she was still mourning the break up of her two year relationship with her previous boyfriend which happened in 2004.

i remember being in this little wine bar in cannes having downed about three bottles of wine and J crying about the ex who she desperately wanted back because he was the only man for her. i tried to convince her that there would be someone else, but she wouldn't hear it. then back in the land of oz, new years eve after downing a similar amount of wine, some drunk brit sits down next to her and 6 months later they are engaged.

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